WHERE IS HEAVEN?
Men have always been of the opinion that heaven is many hundred, no, many thousands of miles distant above the face of the earth, and that God dwells only in that upward heaven. Some have undertaken to measure this height and distance, and have produced many strange and ghastly devices to do so. Indeed, before my knowledge and revelation of God, I believed that the only true heaven was a round circumference, very azure of a light blue color, which extended above the stars; and I supposed that God had deposited therein His peculiar Being, and that He ruled in this world only in the power of His Holy Spirit.
But when this notion had produced many problems in me and I, at last, found it repulsive, doubtless from the moving of the Spirit, which had a great longing yearning towards me, I at last fell into a very deep melancholy and heavy sadness. Then I beheld and contemplated within my spirit the immense depths and complexities within this world, and of the whole universe. And in this contemplation in myself, I found that evil and good, love and anger, are in all things simultaneously; in the inanimate creatures, in wood, stones, earth and the elements, as well as in men and beasts. And in finding that evil and good were in all things, I became very sad and greatly perplexed and troubled. The Bible could not comfort me, though I was very well acquainted with it and versed in it, and the devil was often beating me with heathenish thoughts which I will not mention here.
In this affliction, I earnestly raised my spirit up into God, wrapping my whole heart and mind and all of my thoughts and my whole will, and without ceasing I wrestled with the Love and Mercy of God, determined not to give up unless He blessed me, that is, unless He enlightened me by His Holy Spirit so that I might understand. So hard did I dig in, within the recesses of my being, towards the life of God and against the gates of Hell, that suddenly my spirit crashed through the gates of Hell and beyond even into the innermost moving of God Himself, and there I was suddenly embraced in love as a bridegroom embraces his dearly beloved bride. The sublimity of the victory within my spirit cannot be expressed either in speaking or writing, neither can it be compared to anything except the regeneration of life out of death.
In this Light, my spirit suddenly saw through all, in all, and by all. I discovered God in all of creation, even in the plants and grass; and I realized that I also had discovered the very nature of God, and that I at last knew who God is, and how God is, and what God's will is. Then quite suddenly in that Light of illumination, my will was moved by an immense impulse to describe the Being of God.
From this Light I now have all the knowing, urging, and willing within me to write, and let God work His will in me, though in doing so I should enrage the whole world, the devil, and all the gates of Hell. Even so, I will write and look on and wait what the Lord intends with it.
Now, dear reader, observe: If you want to know about Heaven and what Heaven is and where it is, you do not need to cast your thoughts many thousands of miles off, for that place, that heaven thousands of miles away, is not your Heaven. The true Heaven is not a created place but an uncreated place, and it is not found in a particular place but everywhere, even in the very place where you are standing and going. For when your spirit within yourself is able to penetrate inward through and beyond your own flesh and life, and is able to catch hold of the innermost moving of God, then you are clearly in Heaven. Moreover, if your eyes were but opened, you should see God everywhere in His Heaven, for Heaven is found everywhere. For instance, when St. Stephen saw Heaven open and the Lord Jesus at the right hand of God, his spirit did not suddenly transport itself into outer space, but rather Stephen's spirit had moved inward, within, into the innermost place where Heaven is found everywhere. So you must realize that this world with all of its physical properties is in union with the vast vistas of the heavenly spaces above the earth. There is only one Heart, one Being, one Will, one God, All in all.
Don't think that God is only in some far away heaven, and that the soul, when it departs the human body, must soar aloft many hundred thousands of miles off in order to reach Heaven. No, it need not do that to reach Heaven, because when the soul in Christ departs the body, it is already present in Heaven and there the soul is with God and in God, and also with all the holy angels, and the soul can suddenly be above and suddenly beneath; it is not hindered by anything. For in the unity of God there is no separation of seeming distance. Indeed, in what place should the departed soul of man rather be than with its King and Redeemer Jesus Christ? The fact is that near and far off in God are one thing, one comprehensibility; Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, everywhere.
Moreover, this unity is found throughout the universe, for all that there is both here and throughout the universe is, in essence, one Person manifesting Himself. This seemingly outward universe is nothing more than the Godhead playing the joyous melody of His life through His creative instruments which are all of the varied physical forms found throughout the universe, especially the form known as man which He always intended to be His highest song of praise to His eternal and uncreated glory! So you see that wherever you are in this world, you are in Heaven. But you must surely be warned that not only Heaven, but Hell also is present within you, and only in Christ Jesus are you safe from the wrath of God, which is the source of the fires of Hell. For the Wrath of God is summed up in the cross, because it is through the cross that God eternally dies to His Wrath. The Heaven of Love is called patience, for the Father of spirits waits for all His children to choose His Life and Love, not wishing that any should be lost, and the Spirit of Truth reigns in the Heaven of Love and is called Faith and Hope, for He is the source of all faith and hope.
Now finally, little children of flesh, I urge you to open the eyes of your spirits and your hearts, for I want earnestly to show to you the true and proper way to the gates of God's Heaven. Behold! God is the True, the One, the only Being out of whom you yourselves were created, and within whose Life you are living even now. Therefore, Oh child of man, when you behold in your flesh the depths of the universe, the stars and the complexity of the earth, and all that is in heaven and earth, you are in fact truly in the presence of God. For He is All, and in Him you live and have your being; and that same God reigns and rules over you as well, because He is your King and Creator. It is from this God that you receive even your senses and your ability to have consciousness and to know and think and express yourself. Don't you see? You are a part of Him, and your entire being is a derivative of Him. You are His offspring, you came from Him, and you truly exist in Him. If this were not true, you would never have been.
And so little children, if you now want and desire to draw near by faith to the Life of God, Listen! You must enter inward to the depths within yourselves wherein Christ dwells — not without. For within you there exists an eternity, even as there is an eternity within Him. So you must go in to the depths of the hidden secret place within you, to the very depths of the abyss of the Eternal Willing in the Father, which is God's Desire and the source of all things (although this Desire is in no place; it is in fact nothing and also it is nowhere, yet it is present everywhere and in all things because all things come out of it), For it is within this Will or Desire that Wrath and Love eternally struggle against each other, and in which Love is the eternal victor out of the fiery dark wheel of selfishness, through the eternal cross in God's Heart, into regeneration bursting forth as the eternal glorious light of God's nature. His nature is Light, Gentleness, Mercy, Wisdom and Love forever, and it is expressed to us by His Voice, the Word, the Son, our Lord, Saviour, and God. And out of this eternally immense depth of God's Desire, there forever streams forth the light and Love which is the uncreated glory. And this is the true Heaven.
For in this depth within you, God eternally rules in Holiness in His uncreated Heaven. And His Willing within you expresses itself as the willing to all goodness, not wrath, and this willing ever reigns in everlasting dominion, the Sovereign God of Love in victory through the eternal cross on which was slain the Lamb of God before ever a single atom was created. And when you comprehend this, that is, the tragedy which forever occurs in the eternal depths of the Heart of God, and when you know that our God is safe forever, True forever, Merciful forever, and the Being of Love forever (because He forever dies to Himself on the cross in His own heart to all wrath and selfish desire), then my brothers and sisters, you will have crossed through and penetrated into the very and holy heart of God.
And when you comprehend this, you shall know that in this Heaven within you, you are in Christ Jesus, always in union with God. And since you are in oneness with Him, you also shall experience in your flesh, soul, and spirit the same eternal struggle in which you shall forever die to wrath and to self, and through the cross, always being crucified with Him, you shall eternally flash brilliantly with the fire of new life and Love, as you by faith, hope, and love replace wrath with love, evil with good, and the negative with the positive in all aspects of your life. You too shall, as He did, surely fill the gap and take up the office of High Priest with Him ever living to make intercession for others; and then you shall walk on this earth bringing peace into the midst of the storms that shall always come in this life as long as the present world remains. And when this is done, then God, whose very being is for others and who has now forever made you to be His Sons for others, shall truly reign and control in oneness with you in your regenerated being. Then my friend, you shall be as God is who Himself is Heaven, earth, stars, the molecules and atoms. All in all, and for all. Hallelujah! Amen.
He alone is a true Christian whose soul and mind has entered again into the original matrix, out of which the life of man has taken its origin; that is to say, the eternal Word (Logos). This Word has been revealed in our human nature, which is blind to the presence of God, and he who absorbs this Word with his hungry soul, and thereby returns to the original spiritual state in which humanity took its origin, his soul will become a temple of divine love, wherein the Father receives His beloved Son. In him will reside the Holy Ghost.
He alone, therefore, in whom Christ exists and lives is a Christian, a man in whom Christ has been raised out of the wasted flesh of Adam. He will be an heir of Christ—not on account of some merit gained by some one else, nor by some favor conferred upon him by some external power, but by inward grace.
To believe merely in a historical Christ, to be satisfied with the belief that at some time in the past Jesus has died to satisfy the anger of God, does not constitute a Christian. Such a speculative Christian every wicked devil may be, for every one would like to obtain, without any efforts of his own, something good which he does not deserve. But that which is born from the flesh cannot enter the kingdom of the God. To enter that kingdom one must be reborn in the Spirit.
Not palaces of stone and costly houses of worship regenerate man; but the divine spiritual sun, existing in the divine heaven, acting through the divine power of the Word of God in the temple of Christ. A true Christian desires nothing else but that which the Christ within his soul desires.
All our religious systems are only the works of intellectual children. We ought to repudiate all our personal desires, disputes, science, and will, if we want to restore the harmony with the mother which gave us birth at the beginning; for at present our souls are the playgrounds of many hundreds of malicious animals, which we have put there in the place of God, and which we worship for gods. These animals must die before the Christ principle can begin to live therein. Man must return to his natural state (his original purity), before he can become divine.
These 'animals' are the very elements of which our own personal and illusive self is composed. Each represents an individual state of will, desire, or consciousness; but in the midst of them shines the divine Light of the Christ. If a man allows one or the other of these 'animals' to grow and expand in him, so that its qualities will tincture his whole being, he will then be himself that being in whose possession he is, and become unconscious of his true nature in the Light of the Spirit. Therefore man must rise superior to his animal or worldly thoughts and desires, before he can find the kingdom of heaven in him.
There is no other way for Christ to live than through the death of old Adam; a man cannot become a god and remain an animal still. No one is saved by God as a mark of his gratitude for having attended church and having had the patience to listen to a sermon; but his attendance to external ceremonies can only benefit him if he hears Christ speak within his own heart.
All our disputations and intellectual speculations in regard to the divine mysteries are useless; because they originate from external sources. God's mysteries can be only known by God, and to know them we must first seek God in our own center. Our reason and will must return to the inner source from which they originated; then will we arrive at a true science of God and His attributes.
Man's will and imagination have become perverted from their original state, Man has surrounded himself by a world of will and imagination of his own. He has therefore lost sight of God, and can only regain his former state and become wise if he brings the activity of his soul and mind again in harmony with the divine Spirit.
A Christian is he who lives in Christ, and in whom Christ's power is active. He must feel the divine fire of love burn in his heart. This fire is the Spirit of Christ, who continually crushes the head of the serpent, meaning the desires of the flesh. The flesh is governed by the will of the world; but the spiritual fire in man is kindled by the Spirit. He who wants to become a Christian must not boast and say: 'I am a Christian!' but he should desire to become one, and prepare all the conditions necessary that the Christ may live in him. Such a Christian will perhaps be hated and persecuted by the nominal Christians of his time; but he must bear his cross, and thereby he will become strong.
The theologians and Christian sectarians keep on continually disputing about the letter and form, while they care nothing for the spirit, without which the form is empty and the letter dead. Each one imagines that he has the truth in his keeping, and wants to be admired by the world as a keeper of the truth. Therefore they denounce and slander and backbite each other, and thus they act against the first principle taught by Christ, and which is brotherly love. Thus the Church of Christ has become a bazaar where vanities are exhibited, and as the Israelites dance around the golden calf, so the modern Christians dance around their self-constructed fetishes, whom they call God, and on account of this fetishworship they will not be able to enter the promised land.
The whole Christian religion is based upon a knowledge of our origin, our present condition, our destiny. It shows first how from unity we fell into variety, and how we may return to the former state. Secondly, it shows what we were before we became disunited. Thirdly, it explains the cause of the continuance of our present disunion. Fourthly, it instructs us as to the final destiny of the mortal and immortal elements within our constitution.
All the teachings of Christ have no other object than to show us the way how we may reascend from a state of variety and differentiation to our original unity; and he who teaches otherwise teaches an error. All the doctrines which have been hung around this fundamental doctrine, and which do not conform with the latter, are merely the products of worldly foolishness, thinking itself wise; they are merely useless ornaments which will create errors, and are calculated to throw dust in the eyes of the ignorant.
Now if thou sayest, that thou canst not, and that thou art too strongly captivated; I say also, that I cannot, for it lies not in my willing, running, and toiling, but it lies in the Compassion of God, for I cannot by my own Strength and Ability overcome the wrathful Anger of God which is enkindled in me; but seeing his dear Heart has freely given itself again out of Love, and in Love, into the Humanity, viz. into the poisonful enkindled Mercury in the Soul, and tinctured the Soul, viz. the Poison-Source of the Eternal Nature in the Eternal Father's Nature's Property, therefore I will cast my Will into his Tincture, and I will go with my Will out of the enkindled Poison-Source, out of the evil Mercury in God's Anger into his Death, and with my corrupted Will I will die with him in his Death, and become a Nothing in him, and then he must be my Life.
For if my Will is a Nothing, then he is in me what he pleases, and then I know not myself any more, but him; and if he will that I shall be something, then let him effect it; but if he wills it not, then I am dead in him, and he lives in me as he pleases, and so then if I be a Nothing, then I am at the End, in the Essence out of which my Father Adam was created; for out of Nothing God has created all Things.
But yet I find in me another Life, which I am, not according to the Resignation or Self-denial, but according to the Creature of this World, viz. according to the Similitude of Eternity; this Life does yet stand in Poison and Strife, and shall yet be turned to Nothing, and then I am wholly perfect: Now in this same Life, wherein yet I find my Self-hood, is Sin and Death, and these like-wise shall be brought to Nothing. In that Life, which God is in me, I hate Sin and Death, and according to that Life which yet is in my Self-hood, I hate the No-Thing, viz, the Deity: Thus one Life fights against the other, and there is a continual Contest in me; but seeing Christ is born again in me, and lives in my Nothingness, therefore Christ will, according to his Promise made in Paradise, bruise the Head of the Serpent, viz. of my Self-hood, and mortify the evil Man in myself, so that he himself may truly live in me.
I know well that I can do Nothing in my own Might or Strength. But Faith, which can receive where there is Nothing, can do it: If I cast my Will into God’s Will, then GOD believeth in My Will; and then I can receive, for nothing is Impossible to Faith: I can receive to myself the Becoming Man or Incarnation of Christ; if My Will willeth, yet I cannot do it, but God’s Will in Mine.
I know Nothing, also desire to know nothing, nor have I at any time sought any skill or knowledge; for I am a child in knowledge, and a Nothing; I would also fain know Nothing, that I might in knowledge, be dead and a Nothing, that God in the Spirit of Christ, may be my knowing, willing, and doing, that I may run in his knowing and willing, and that not I, but he; that I may be only his Instrument, and he the Hand and the Labour.
My high knowledge maketh me not happy or saved; for I know not my Self; it is not Mine, but God’s Spirit knoweth it in ME; he allures Me therewith to himself; when he departeth or withdraweth, then I know Nothing.
Now I believe, that I shall arise in HIS and MY Flesh and Eternally Live in him, his Life for mine, his Spirit for mine, and all whatsoever I am, for him; He, God, I, Man, and in him God and Man; and he in me God and Man.
Apology: Balthazar Tylcken 2:171, 2:270, 2:295, 1:587
Have a certain assured Confidence upon God's Promise; and however thy misgiving Heart say no, yet let not this affright thee. For to believe is not to be filled with Joy in the fleshly Heart and outward Complexion, that the fleshly Mind and Spirit be so jocund, that the very Heart and Reins leap for Joy. This is not Faith, but these are only some Love Emanations from the Holy Ghost within, a divine Lightning, which hath no Stability, but, after a short Resplendence, disappears. For God dwells not in the outward Heart or Complexion, but in himself, in the second Centre, in the Jewel of the noble Image of God's Likeness which is hidden in this outward World.
1.God has not created us for self-dominion, but as instruments of his wonder.
2. As you leave the world, you will come into that out of which the world was made.
3. Where God's will wills in a thing, there God is revealed.
4. What now seems hard to you, you will later learn to love the most.
5. Christ's Kingdom is not of this world, but in Heaven. Therefore you must be in continual ascension if you wish to imitate Christ properly.
6. God's spirit acts only in resigned humility which neither seeks nor desires itself.
7. Christ lives essentially in the faith of those who have given themselves completely to him.
8. I am a string in the concert of God's joy.
9. If you could be silent from all willing and thinking for one hour, you would hear God's inexpressible words.
10. With your own seeing, you see only in your own will.
11. Here, now, is the right place for you to wrestle before the Divine face. If you remain firm, if you do not bend, you will see and perceive great wonders. You will discover how Christ will storm the hell in you and will break your beasts.
12. Heaven is nothing other than a revelation of the Eternal One, where everything works and wills in silent love.
13. When God's love completely dwells in a soul, it is in heaven and is itself God's heaven in which He dwells.
14. No life can express, nor mouth describe, the fire of the inflaming love of God.
15. Where you according to your own self and will do not dwell, there the angels dwell over and in you.
16. The anguished work of the creature is an opening and generation of divine power, by which God's power becomes moving and working.
17. The soul must remain in resigned humility just as the fountain relies on its source.
18. You must grow again into the image of God both from above and from below, as a young tree is moved by the wind and must stand in heat and cold, and in such turmoil draws its power to itself above and below and must endure many windstorms and stand in great danger before it becomes a tree that bears fruit.
19. If you have left the way of images and rule in the silence out of which all creatures were created, then nothing can harm you for you are like all things and nothing is unlike you.
20. When you move silently, then you are that which God was before nature and creature, out of which He created your nature and creature.
21. When you remain silent from the thinking and willing of self, the Eternal hearing and seeing and speaking will be revealed in you, and God will see and hear through you.
22. If your will could break away from all creatures for one hour and sweep up to where no creature is, it would be dressed over with the highest brightness of God's glory and would taste in itself the sweetest love of our Lord Jesus Christ.
23. God's love lives in the resigned will, by which the soul is made holy and comes to divine rest. When the body breaks up, the soul is pressed through with divine love and illuminated with God's light, as fire glows through iron.
24. No work outside of God's will can reach God's Kingdom. It is all only a useless carving in the great laboriousness of man.
25. All that the self does outside of God's will occurs in fantasy.
26. All that occurs through the conclusions of the human self is only a mirror of the contending wheel of nature. What good builds up, evil breaks down; and what evil builds up, good breaks down. This is the great sorrow of useless laboriousness.
27. I, God, press through your branches into the sap and bear fruit on your boughs.
28. For it is the young tree grown out of the old root which shall illuminate what the old tree has been in its wonders.
29. As little as a piece of work can apprehend him that made it, so little also can man apprehend and know God his Creator, unless the Holy Ghost enlighten him; which happeneth only to those that rely not upon themselves, but set their hope, will and desires upon God alone, and move in the Holy Ghost, and these are one spirit with God.
30. Mere word-prayer without exaltation of thought and divine desire is only an external thing, a mere repeating of words. Nothing pleases God except that which He does Himself.
31. The will necessary to accomplish prayer is far too weak as long as it is in our own powers that we pray, but if acted upon by divine power it becomes awakened, fiery, and full of desire.
32. Science cannot abolish faith in the all-seeing God, without worshiping in His place the blind intellect.
33. Not I, the I that I am, know these things; but God knows them in me.
34. Our whole doctrine is nothing else but an Instruction to show how man may create a kingdom of light within himself. He in whom this spring of divine power flows, carries within himself the divine image and the celestial substantiality. In him is Jesus born from the Virgin, and he will not die in eternity
A lily blossoms upon the mountains and valleys in all the ends of the earth: He that seeketh findeth.
The Spirit of the Lord has out of his love planted a new branch in the human property which shall make known his child Jesus to all nations, tongues and speeches, and that in the morning of the eternal day.
For though he introduced divine property into our humanity, yet he did not therefore cast away our humanity, but brought it into the way of the New Birth.
And since Adam had quenched the light-world, the light-world was again incorporated with the name Jesus, which came to pass in the conception of Mary.
There is no place of rest in the earthly self-hood, but only in the fair solar lustre of his precious pearl; when the sun arises to him in the darkness, and the night departs.
The whole host of heaven is set and tuned into one harmony; each angelical kingdom into a peculiar instrument, but all mutually composed into one music, into the only love-voice of God: Every string of this melody exalts and rejoices the other; and it is only a mere ravishing lovely and delightful hearing.
Whatever God is in himself, that the creature is also in its desire in him; a God-angel, and a God-man, God all in all, and without him nothing else.
As it was before the times of this world in His eternal harmony, so also it continues in the creaturely voice in Him in His eternity; and this is the beginning and the end of all things.
St. John says, "The light shineth in the darkness, and the darkness apprehended it not;" that is, the self-hood in its own will and working, cannot apprehend it; but in resignation the liberty of God shines in it.
The Deity is wholly everywhere all in all; but he is only called God according to the light of love, and according to the proceeding spirit of joy; but according to the dark impression he is called God's anger and the dark world; and according to the eternal fire-spirit he is called a consuming fire.
Unbelief is the negation of that faith which is God and the nothing wherein the devil resides. It is the outcome of selfishness and of that blindness which causes man not to recognize the possession of what he already has.